You know you're a smoker when....

i've decided that there are many different ways of deciding the degree to which you are a smoker...i've been on multiple rims of the spectrum so i think that i have some kind of idea on this subject....it's like this:'

1. Full-time Smoker (i'm talking like -all day, fullly addicted, smoking all the time, always has a pack, smokes every possible moment plus some, loves the taste, smell and idea of everything ciggarette related, loves being a smoker - kind of person)
2. Social Smoker ("the only time i smoke is when other people are smoking" or "the only time i can't control my smoking is when other people are smoking")
3. One puff smoker ("can i just get one puff? i really don't want more than that" or "i bought this pack of cigaret'tes but i only smoked one...do you want the rest")
4. One time smoker ("I've had one taste of cigarette smoke in my life and i hated it!" or "i tried it out one time to see what it was like and i had this whole wierd experience that made me never want to try it again")
5. Never smoked cigarettes before

at this point i believe that i have been a full time smoker (#1) for at least 5-6 full years now...

i dont think that i could ever sucessfully settle on being a social smoker at this point in my life (#2)...i know it would be too easy to break down in a situation where others are smoking...that's why i know that i have to distance my self from other smokers (specifically while they're smoking) in order to keep myself from wanting to join in...this presents an even more difficult problem given the fact that i have made many friends specifically due to the fact that i am a smoker...many of the relationships the i have with people depend on the fact that we go out and have cigarettes together........i haven't been able to decide whether it is a good thing or a bad thing to have a cigarette with these people.........

now..i also know, that my current goal - being a person trying to quit smoking - is to get to being a one puff smoker (#3) and say there untill it's completely out of my system

i decided to cut out ex - smoker as a stage because i decided that an ex-smoker can fit into pretty much anything ranging between #3 and #5...and you know what...i don't think i will ever be able to get the thought of smoking out of my system, because i know that cigarettes have already branded me for life! i will always either be a smoker or an ex - smoker...cigarettes will always play a factor...

i guess it is up to me to decide whether they will be the factor that kills me or the factor that i conquered

It took them 200 years to realize that that was fugly

Top ten things i love about Sevilla:

10. Partying until six am

9. Drinking in the streets

8. Having deliciously yummy food that actually healthy cooked for me everyday

7. Spanish candy is soooooooo delicious!

6. My host brother louis is sooo gorgeous

5. The shopping here is amazing

4. Classes here are really really interesting, but not at all difficult

3. This city is so beautiful and filled with the longest richest history ever, it's amazing

2. Walking in the Barrio Santa Cruz

1. Having tapas and sipping sangria and cruz campo for hours on end with people that truly amaze, entertain and enlighten me.

You have a HUGE ass! did you know that?

so yesterday me, jackie and annie went to see javi and his team play futbol (aka soccer, aka for pussies, lol) and while they were getting their asses kicked we were staring at their asses and drinking champagne...mmmmm..good times...so fran was playing, and he has a really big ass right, so we were making jokes about the whole time, and we missed seeing the other team score like three times cuz we were paying attention to fran's ass instead right? plus we were drunk...at 7 in the evening...

so afterwards we went to a bar to watch another game on tv and after that we went to javi's friend manu's house where he cooked us dinner...and gave us more booze...needless to say, i got pretty trashed. so there we are, me, jackie and annie, sitting in a room with about 8 spanish people, some of which speak a minor amount of english, but not much (fran and javi included)....we're drinking chilling smoking hookah, there's a general atmosphere of tomfoolery in the air..and bam! out of no where, jackie stands up and says in the loudest voice ever to fran "you have a HUGE ass!! did you know that?"...lol!...so me and annie immediately cover our mouths in shock and start cracking up soooo hard and all the spanish people are looking at us with the most confused expressions on their faces...javi told us to say it in spanish...but we were laughing too hard...none of them understood at all...and the three of us were splitting our sides about to die laughing...that was basically the best moment in spain's history...i will forever remember that!

which reminds me, that is something i will really miss about living here: being able to say whatever i want, whenever i want, and getting away with it because no one knows what i'm talking about...and we do that all the time too...we just talk about people directly in front of their faces and they have no idea what's going on...we say shit like..."look at that kids mullet! omg he looks like joe dirt!" or "can you believe how fucking fugly that chick's outfit is!" or "you have a HUGE ass! did you know that?"

damnit..i'm gonna miss spain