foyamierdajoder!

sooo, my spanish adventure is nearing it's end and what do i have to show for it? a shitload of cool crap, a minor improvement in my spanish and a bunch of really cool new friends that i will probably never see again...lame. good thing this has been one of the coolest thing i've ever done in my life.

it's just kind of crazy because everyone said this would be this crazy life changing experience that would be unlike anything i've ever done before and i would never be the same and all that...but i guess it just hasn't really phased me that way considering the fact that i've already done the whole move-away-from-home-really-far-and-experience-a-whole-new-lifestyle thing already, which i guess makes me kind of jaded with the whole novelty of it all. that's not to say that this isn't an incredible experience for me, i just kind of feel like it was all that different from what i normally do...i just wish i had more time here, i know i've done a shitload of really cool stuff, but i still kind of worry that i haven't really made the most of my time here, especially considering the amount of time i spend hanging out in my room and going online coughfacebookcough, not that i wouldnt be doing that at home, it's just that i'm not at home, and when i go home, how different is it really gonna be...at least there will be indoor heating cuz i'm freezing my little brown booty off here (inside!)

i guess one good thing that's goin down now is the fact that i have so little money left that i'm not going to be able to travel anywhere before i leave, which isnt exactly good in normal terms, but it does mean that i'm forced to stay in sevilla and try to make the most of the city. hopefully that will start today once i take a shower and get the hell out of bed (its 4 in the afternoon btw, i woke up and ate lunch and that's it, though i did have a pretty entertaining conversation with my host family about pranks you can play on people who double park you)

i cant even speak spanish very much better!!! oh well, i am alot more confident now, and i can definitely communicate and have conversations with people, which is awesome but i still can't like join a conversation between spaniards, i can basically only talk to people who are talking to me specifically and slowing down and trying to understand what i'm saying (and correcting me)..but the whole thing about that that makes me not feel so bad is the fact that when i was with my mom here, i realized that she doesn't speak perfect spanish either..(tho spain spanish and new mexico spanish are pretty different, that's another thing, i bet it'll be easier when i come back too, cuz people here speak with a really thick hard to understand accent)

so anyways, i thought i'd just muse for a moment, i thinks important to get this kind of shit down so i can remember later how i was actually feeling here, instead of only just what i did, cuz the feeling's amazing, i love that i can just switch continents for a little minute and grab a whole new perspective on life and then go right back and do what i gotta do. (which i dont want to do) this did also make me realize that i'm never gonna stay in the same place. i just want to go everwhere and always do something new in a new place...next venture: costa rica for the summer!! ojala!